Saturday, April 23, 2005
Bismi'llah arRahman arRahim. There is no refuge from Allah but in Him.
There is no refuge from God but in God ..there is no refuge from the Absolute but in the Absolute ...
Maybe that one word..Absolute,free of any religious definitions or distinctions,
can help me to ... be with my God .. The One ... The All ..
I can go on and on searching for quotes and masters that said .. etc etc .. but I still do believe that He/It .. is everywhere and in everything ..
What I want is just to be with Him..with that thing all the time floating,or swimming in Mercy Oceans,as SheikhNazim would say.
Fear ..where does this fear of Him come from then?..is it natural fear projected onto or associated with,Allah as described or projected in Islam?..
Or is it really fear of an objective Reality,called Allah? .. Why do I feel fearful when I go to Hindu scriptures,or reading Vivakananda .. but feel O.K. and justified when I read virtually the same ideas and explanations in Ibn Arabi?
At the end of the day ..the "Traditionalist" thing from Rene Guenon may have it..that while knowing the central mystical Truth common to all religions..one must take a path ...
Then,don't I have to admit that I am just lazy and selfish ..proud and undisciplined ..? Or is it that I am not really sure of Islam / the Prophet PBUH? ..or even Sheikh Nazim for that matter.
100% one can only really be sure of God Almighty Himself ..or The Absolute.
That name,word,or expression may be the best for me..to just turn off my mind and Be with ....(It) ..or (once again,as I 'discovered' all those years ago) .. just"Be".
The Absolute ..All ideas and paths ..and yet none of them ..Beyond all ..
The idea of transcendence..when one has realised the dual nature of the mind and its creation of one's reality then,the Truth is not somewhere in between or a mixture of both but another reality .. a non-ordinary reality ... which .. according to all accounts and ..to 'logic' ... is (perhaps while including all the rest) completely different ..
That is what one wants to get to ..beyond all this petty duality and yes and no and better and worse and like and dislike etc etc ..
Sitting,being,feeling the pulsating God in all and,maybe especially,in ourselves..
Isn't that what I am so afraid of,to admit and know and believe that I also am God?..that I really do not exist ..that only He exists.