Well I never!
Bismi'llah arRahman arRahim. There is no refuge from Allah but in Him.

Well I never! (did you ever?) .. no,nothing really,just that, as I feel a little groggy this afternoon I brought the old faithful lappie into the bedroomwith me and,in this relaxed state,was able to peruse the blog a little less tensely.Imagine my surprise when I found the bit I thought was lost this morning much further down in Friday's posts!
Not as brilliant as I'd remembered it,but alhamduli'llah,not lost.I'm as much pleased for Blogger working properly as anything..and also..not to feel castigated every time I get something just alittle bit right.Time after time recently I see that it is just the way I see things that created my own negative reality..and not how it really is.I wonder if the clock being wrong was putting it in the previous day or something like that?
I have seen some stuff on the telly in Spanish and some more images and comments on BBC Front Page,of the Prince's wedding to Camilla.I feel so sad about the whole affair.I remember crying buckets when I was back in England after being in Cyprus and Lady Di got killed.I surprised myself really at the time,having been out of England and fairly disinterested in all the wedding stuff when it went off.I think the Royal Family moves stuff deep inside oneself.The image of some tradition and stability and something to believe in at a National level.The Royal Family is like an archetype for the nuclear family and what is happening now is so typical of where everything is going in the world today.No more solid moral base,no more reliable institutions.No more family life based on Religious or revealed law moral principles.
I find it hard to express myself,but I have been following what Sheikh has always taught us,to support the Prince and respect him.To believe in Kings and Sultans as the best God-sent system of government.To support one's leaders despite their mistakes, as that is between them and God and our duty is to help preserve the status quo,not undermine it and replace it with mob-rule.
If anyone does read this,please feel free to leave comments.
God! I feel lonely and lost and misplaced.I have no family and no support group.Thank God I have Bilquis..but should anything happen to her ... well,it hasn't yet ...it's just that with all these illnesses and troubles she keeps getting. ....
Looking back at this in order to edit out mistakes,I find that,although a bit negative and 'poor me' in general tone,it is at least clearly and maturely expressed.At least compared to some of the more convoluted stuff I used to write when in real screaming internal turmoil and pain.


- posted by longgone1 @ 4/09/2005 08:22:00 PM